I find change a very unsettling thing to deal with. And unsettling is putting it quite lightly. Change actually puts my whole life into a tailspin. I can't handle it. However, in the midst of it I think I am handling it just fine. I think I have everything under control. Then to my surprise after I have been through it I look back or I talk to a loved one close to me and find out that the grace I thought I was exhibiting under pressure was just an illusion.
This year has brought so many changes to our life. I am sure this is true for everyone. It always seems like when I am looking at my life and the changes that have occurred they seem much bigger and harder than anyone else's. This is a very selfish and self-centered way of looking at things I realize. I am not really sure how to fix my selfish point of view, consequently I will tell you the changes that have occurred from my filter.
- Changed jobs
- Lost a job
- Went into a hospital
- Moved again
- Blended a family
- Changed careers
- Began recovery
These were just the changes in my life. Some I have not listed because yes, some are way too personal right now to explain here. With all these changes I have reflected on how to continue this blog. I am still trying to figure it out, but I do realize that I want to continue it because it gives me such an outlet. But how to continue. Our family is SO very different now.
So...friends change is coming...I hope you will hold on and go through it with me.